Updates

Just so people know. I have updated the website I'm working on about cooperator brothers. Check out the pages on notable brothers and martyred brothers. New pictures and stories. http://cooperatorbrother.googlepages.com/home I've found a picture of Bl. Garcia d'Aure, an early martyr and a picture of "Blessed Carino of Balsamo", whom I wrote in an earlier entry. Apparently, there is still a local cult that venerates Br. Carino as a blessed. Indeed, his cause was being investigated, but Pius VII died and the paper work got lost. Please join me in praying that the cause will be reopened and this holy man will be canonized. Here's the picture:

Also, I'm very excited about my visit home because an artist friend of mine, Chris McNay, has complete a poster he's designed about the brothers. I can't wait to see his depiction of Br. Oderic of Normandy, the first cooperator brother.

Merry Christmas!
P~

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas from Br. Paul! My Christmas is getting better and better. Yesterday, the fourth Sunday and last day of Advent, I had the duty of preaching. I think it's funny how nervous I get before preaching. To tell the truth, I really ought not wait until the day of to start preparing, but as life would have it, I did.

I preached on the concept of birthday celebrations and the difference between why we celebrate and how we celebrate. Both are pretty basic. The why=because we want to give thanks for the life of a person who has touched us. The how=a party and gifts. But what if someone focuses only on the how we celebrate? Wouldn't you get upset if someone came to your birthday party not caring a thing about you, but was focused on the party and presents instead? Unfortunately, I think many people do this very thing to our Lord, turning the focus of his birthday away from him, and placing it on the festivities. Christians have to beware, and make sure that our Lord's birthday is a day of great thanksgiving. For it's on Christmas that we celebrate the birth of the Word Incarnate, Jesus, who became flesh solely for our salvation and redemption.

Now that preaching is over, the only other liturgical job I have to worry about is my role as cantor 2 during evening prayer II of Christmas. Luckily, I've only got two antiphons to worry about!

The above picture is of Blessed Garcia d'Aure, another holy Dominican cooperator brother martyr. Blessed Garcia was one of eleven companions of Bl. William Arnauld. Bl. William had been sent to Toulouse as inquisitor, but a heretical count had gained power, and he wanted nothing to do with William or his Catholic band. Eventually, the count contrived to murder William and his companions, Bl. Garcia among them. Most were murdered at a manor house, but Bl. William was murdered within the sanctuary of the church. The murder of the holy friars, however, had the opposite effect, and resulted in many miracles and the conversion of the city back to Catholicism. Bl. Garcia, pray for us!

This is my last posting until I return to home from Christmas vacation on January 11th. I wish all my readers a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Please pray for vocations. And please sign my guest book. I would enjoy learning more about my readers and what they might like to know.

Paul, OP

Allusive Perfection



Bl. Brother Eleuterio, Martyr of Spanish Revolution

I put Bl. Eleuterio's picture here, because when I first came across is on the terrific website, http://newsaints.faithweb.com/index.htm I liked his expression. He seems terribly likeable and outgoing. (Go to this website for an update on causes for beatification and canonization and those new causes being introduced. I just visited and they had posted 14 new potential saints.)

Anyway, to the heart of the posting. The community of friars here in St. Louis just went on a three day retreat before our Christmas departures to our home towns. While I enjoyed all the game playing and recreation, I have to say, I got most refreshment from the talk given to us by a Jesuit priest. During his talk, he mentioned four possible approaches to spirituality to be found in the Hebrew Scriptures: Priestly, Yahwehistic, Elohistic, and Deutronomic. (I think those are the right conjugations). Priestly=You seek to please God. Yahwehistic=You relate to the brokenness of humanity and God's nearness to us in distress. Elohistic=You seek to be Perfect as God is Perfect. And Deutronomic=You seek to obey, emphasizing biblical/Church/or civic law.

As I listened to the priest, I recognized that as a child, my spirituality had been more priestly, and centered on pleasing God, but about the time that I was converting to Catholicism (17-18 years old), my spirituality shifted to the Elohistic approach, with an emphasis on perfection. I think part of this shift has to do with the stories of the saints. From reading about saints like St. Francis of Assisi, I came to believe that a perfect imitation of Christ was possible. If it was possible to follow Christ perfectly, why wouldn't I try to do so myself? Indeed, the scripture passage that stood out to me then, and does so to this day, is "If you want to be perfect, go, sell everything you have, and give to the poor. Then follow me."

Each of the models discussed have positives and negatives, and each reflects some aspect of Christ. For example, Christ sought in everything he did to please God (priestly), he related to the broken outcasts and sinners around him (Yahwehistic), he was perfect himself and called others out of their sin and directed them toward perfection (Elohistic), and preached about following the law, especially the law of love (Deutronomic). The Pharisees, however, also did all these things, and some of them got it all wrong, using their efforts to please God to ignore the needs of the broken. Their supposed holiness or perfection made them intolerant of other peoples sinfulness. And their legalistic minds had factored out the heart of the law: love of God and neighbor.

In my own life, the perfection model that I unwittingly adapted, has often left me at best impatient, and at worst, intolerant of other people's imperfections. In general, I am lenient toward people I do not know, but the closer you are to me, or the more I love you, the more I demand and expect from you. In community life, the negatives of all these models can play out easily and cause tension. My intolerance, played in a passive agressive way, leads me to either alienate myself or the person I disagree with. Unlike some, I don't gossip or slander the one I disagree with, nor do I seek to create arguments, but I'm guilty of hatred just the same. And this, clearly, is not perfection--not the kind that our Lord showed us on the Cross.

The great thing about all this is now I know. I believe that I am moving into the Yahwehistic model of accepting my brokenness and that of others, but there is still this drive toward perfection that guides part of my spirituality. Knowing that I am a perfectionist will hopefully help me to loosen up a bit, especially when it comes to my brothers in religion, who operate out of different models/philosophies, and personality types.

Another realization that I've had recently is the absolute importance of a good/healthy self-image. I've neglected mine for so long, that I sometimes suffer from fear and anxiety, low self-esteem, and jealousy, because I cannot see the beauty, goodness, and truth in myself. This is a shame, considering all that God has done for me, considering he has done everything possible to show his love for me. I know that if I really want to spend the rest of my life living for him, doing his will instead of the world's, I have to begin to see myself as beloved by him. When I finally do, what can anyone say to me that could hurt or shake me? What temptation could come that I wouldn't reject as being beneath me as the beloved of God?

Being a rather weak soul, God gives me much consolation. The Holy Spirit instructs me and will not let me rest in my own understanding. Thanks be to God!

P~

An Interesting Luncheon

Today, a classmate invited me out to lunch at a small Italian place by St. Ambrose Church. It was a chance for me to get out of the priory for a little while and commune with my friend. Well, the food wasn't the greatest. This opinion wouldn't surprise anyone who knows me, considering I hate sandwiches that are loaded with fatty sauces. The sandwich, even with the sauce, had almost no flavor at all! Still, the iced-tea was good.

Food is not the reason I am writing this post, the conversation with the friend is the reason. Basically, we talked about leadership in the Church, who has it and who wants it, what does it mean, and who should have it. My friend complimented me on my pastoral approach to people and situations, saying how I tended to "live in the mystery," as contrasted by living out of the rule book. Because I did this so well, she insisted that I should be a priest. She has said this to me before, and I appreciate her meaning. I'm equally sure that I will hear this throughout my life as a religious, because people have the idea that if you're a man, and you're called to serve the Church, you're automatically called to the priesthood. Well, that's one component. The other is, that if you're a man who seems sympathetic, understanding, etc., then you definitely should be a priest, because people want to see those good qualities in the clergy. This is not a bad thing. The trouble is, we Catholics get used to attributing all good qualities to clergy, and do not realize that faithful lay people, and male and female religious are called to be virtuous leaders for the Church, as well.

To tell a cooperator brother that he ought to be a priest, he just doesn't know it yet, undermines the discernment and the maturity of the brother, and it discounts the vocation of the cooperator brotherhood. I say this, not out of anger, but for clarification. Although I have not been a religious long, I believe that there is a place in the church for non-ordained male religious, even if I do not totally understand that place yet. The conversation helped me, in that it didn't cause me to doubt my vocation. Had she been able to disconcert me, there might be even more discernment yet to do.

God, of course, is in charge of vocations. I put my in his hands to do with as he will.

A Brother's Life: Br. Carino Balsamo



The life of Brother Carino (also known as Peter Balsamone) is pretty extraordinary, because he first comes into Dominican history as the hired assassin of Peter of Verona. According to Mary Jean Dorcy, Carino was a field worker, and someone familiar with violent crime. So when he was hired to kill Peter by the wealthy politicians of Lombardy, he studied Peter's schedule, and learned that the holy priest was planning an Easter preaching mission to Milan.



As Peter and his companion, Br. Dominic, were on the road, they were suddenly attacked by Carino (Carino's helper, Albertino fled the scene, contrary to the famous painting above). He severely wounded Br. Dominic, and murdered Peter. Before his death, Peter is known to have written the first word of the Creed in his own blood. The assassin fled the scene, leaving Br. Dominic badly wounded, but still living. He was taken back to the priory and lived long enough to tell the other friars what had happened, before he too died.


A farmer nearby witnessed what happened, and chased after Carino, eventually capturing him. Carino was put in a jail. The villagers wanted to kill Carino, but decided on attacking the jailer instead. The bishop was called in to restore peace. Apparently, because of Carino's connections, he was released. He traveled toward Rome, but by the time he reached a town called Forli, he was seriously ill. Ironically, he sought refuge at a Dominican priory! The brothers took him in, and at the sight of the Dominican habit, Carino broke his silence, and confessed his sin.

Carino promised that if he recovered from his illness that he would serve the Order as a lay brother. Sure enough, he recovered, and would live the life of a brother for forty years. According to Dorcy, "The convent archives picture Carino as a model of obedience, prayer, and penance, a man who sometimes spent whole nights before the Blessed Sacrament, and who never forgot the mercy of God in his behalf."


There's a touching end to his story. As Brother Carino lay dying, he confessed his sin again, and begged the brothers to be buried in a potter's field with the other criminals. The brothers had to agree, but when the town found out, they bought the potter's field and donated it to the Dominicans. Carino was destined for a better resting place, however. His remains were eventually placed in a chapel, with the holy remains of Bl. James of Slomonio and Bl. Marcolino of Forli on either side of him.


Br. Carino's story shows the amazing power of a life of penance, and the meaning of redemption.

A Helpful Assignment

I've been having some difficulty with my vocation for a while now--not whether or not I was going to stay in the Order, or anything like that, but some feeling of dissatisfaction, and it wasn't until I began working on an assignment for one of my classes that I came to understand the true problem. This is what I learned:

Having a vocation can be like getting onto a roller-coaster for the first time. You know when getting on the ride that you will have very little control over the speed, direction, and destination, but you also know that you're agreeing to get on the ride, because, although there are frightening uncertainties, there's also a level of enjoyment expected, a good to be had. Knowing this, you take your seat and immediately your hands go to the protective bar in front of you. You grasp it so firmly, your knuckles turn white. Wouldn't it then be absurd if the individual on the roller coaster, during the coarse of the ride, tried to somehow to manipulate the speed, direction, or destination? Wouldn't we laugh if we noticed him or her trying to steer or break? But this is exactly what I've been trying to do with my vocation, and the same absurdity applies.

Vocation, we know, is an interior calling from God--so while it is internally discerned, it's acknowledged to be given from an exterior force (God.) God, then, is in charge of an individual's vocation. This is all pretty standard information, and yet I found that lately, out of the best motivations (I hope) I've felt the need to take charge of my vocation, in terms of figuring out what exactly I was going to do for the Order. I think the other motivation for this was so I could form some identity around the ministry I would do. For example, if I taught, I could begin to see myself as a teaching brother, etc. What God wanted me to learn, I believe, was to let go and trust. I might not always understand what it means to be a cooperator brother, or how exactly I will fulfill my preaching vocation as a brother, but these things will come.

What did the General Chapter of Bologna have to say...


The General Chapter in Bologna of 1998
In 1998, the General Chapter of Dominican convened in Bologna, Italy. One of the topics on the agenda was the cooperator brotherhood. It’s worth taking a look at what the chapter said to get a sense of the Order’s attitude toward this unique vocation.


Like in my own essay, the Chapter highlighted the outstanding achievements that some of the brothers have wrought for the Order. They list, Bl. James of Ulm, St. Juan Macias (depicted in the picture to the left), and, of course, the great St. Martin de Porres. If we only had these three names, we would have a good foundation for the different models of cooperator brotherhood (but more on this later).

The chapter goes on to say, "In the priories themselves, the brothers have been at the heart of the community, manifesting a spirit of deep prayer and fidelity to their religious life as well as offering countless services to all the brethren. Because it is the whole community which preaches, we cannot neglect this vocation within our Order without weakening our mission and community life." This statement gives a clear indication that despite what some may think, the cooperator brotherhood is a vital part of the Dominican family, enriching the community of friars, and advancing the mission of the Order.


The chapter is practical in its hopes about the cooperator brotherhood, as well, saying: "Because the Order, by reason of its mission, will always have a greater number of priests, the brother is a witness that we are first of all religious and that what binds us together is not our ordination, but our religious profession. Thus the brother is at the very core of our fraternity and is a constant reminder that even the ordained members of the Order exercise their ministry as Dominican religious brothers." This statement is important for a few reasons. One, it would be a very different model, if we had, as some other religious orders have, separate provinces and houses for the priests and brothers. This alternative model has intrigued me in the past, and I wondered if such an arrangement would help the brothers achieve a sense of independent purpose. But in those thoughts lie the problem. For Dominicans, the priests are supposed to be brothers first, to seperate the friars would not make sense–and, the cooperator brother identity is linked necessarily to the preaching mission of the Order, so a sense of independent purpose perhaps would not be helpful.


The chapter does look at this question of cooperator brother identity, saying: "One model of the role of cooperator brothers is that they do the manual and domestic labour in our houses, sharing directly in the common life while participating only indirectly in the preaching mission of the Order." This model was an important one for many of the holy lay brothers who joined the Order in years past. It was extremely helpful, during the early years of foundation (as when Brother Oderic of Normandy joined Bl. Father Mannes de Guzman in founding the priory in Paris), and in the founding of the first American Dominican province in Kentucky (my home state.) However, this isn’t the only model of cooperator brotherhood. "


Another model, is that some brothers, through their particular skills and talents, including academic and professional credentials and expertise, contribute directly to the preaching mission of the Order." This model is found throughout the history of the Order in the lives of the artists, architects, painters, and other skilled workers who found their vocation in the cooperator brotherhood. The final line of this paragraph reads, "We believe there is room for both models in the Order." I highlight this, because I think there is a temptation to emphasis the professional brother over the domestic brother. True, we just do not have the large communities that we used to that would require in-house workers, but that does not mean that there aren't new ways that this particular model could be lived today. Wanting the priories to be home only to theologians does not guarantee an atmosphere of holiness. In such cases, a few sage words from the stereotypical "humble" brother could do much to call the friars back to right observance.

Knowing that there are two models, friars who are concerned about vocations should be mindful of the various men who could find their place in the Order as cooperator brothers. Men who know that they are not called to be priests, may not know that the cooperator brotherhood offers them a chance to be religious, faithfully serving the Church they love, living in community with their cleric brothers. It is the work of every friar to present both options for the good of the Order.

After all, "Today, the brothers can engage in the direct and explicit preaching mission of the Order which at one time was reserved for the ordained friars. The entire range of apostolic work available to the ordained friars is also available to the non-ordained except that which directly and explicitly requires the Sacrament of Orders."

This statement is important for me, personally, because I, even as a cooperator brother, feel passionately called to preach the Gospel. How I will do so is not so clear, but that I will do so is without question. Our Lord himself preached in the synagogue and at the Temple in Jerusalem, but he also preached wherever the people were who needed his message: at the sea, on the hill side, along the road. This model of preaching is one for all of us to embrace.
Please pray for me for vocations to every branch of our Holy Dominican Order: priests, cooperator brothers, nuns, sisters, laity, and associates.

Coming Soon


Once I get the two papers I am trying to prepare for the end of semester done (one is on the influence of St. Augustine on the theology of Julian of Norwich), I hope to begin adding details here about my own discernment and vocation to the cooperator brotherhood, the struggles and blessings of it.

In the meantime, please feel free to read up on the cooperator brothers by visiting my website: http://cooperatorbrother.googlepages.com/home. It has info on famous and holy Dominican cooperator brothers, as well as, a listing of martyred coop. bros., and a listing of holy non-ordained religious brothers of other orders (including St. Benedict of Nursia and St. Gerard Majella). Forgive any grammatical mistakes I've yet to correct. The site is still in the works.
To the right is a picture of Bl. Rafael Pardo Molina, one of at least 20 cooperator brothers martyred during the Spanish Civil War.

Please stay tuned, and pray for vocations.

Br. Paul, OP~