Life in Vietnam:Brother Nathaniel Nguyen, OP, (last name pronounced like "Ng-When") was born in 1975 in Vietnam, the second son of three. When Nathaniel was still young, his father was taken to a concentration camp for having been a lieutenant in the Vietnam War. At the time, his father was still a Buddhist, though his wife was a Catholic. While her husband was in the camp, Mrs. Nguyen had to take care of her sons without her husband's support. One of the memories that Nathaniel has from those days is the family gathering around the crucifix and saying prayers for the release of his father. Not only was Mr. Nguyen eventually released, but while he was in prison he began taking the steps toward converting to the Catholic faith, which he did, once he was free again.
To America:In 1990, when Nathaniel was turning fifteen years old, the family moved to the United States. He thought that the move was going to be temporary, but it turns out he had to adopt a new country and new language. The seeds of vocation had already been sown, by this time. While still in Vietnam, Nathaniel had served his parish church as an altar boy. There had been a large group of altar boys, so you only got to serve mass once a month. Nathaniel said, "Whenever I served mass, it always made me very happy. I began thinking of being a priest." The idea didn't go away. As a sophomore in college, Nathaniel went to a "Come and See" vocations weekend for his home parish. All the religious groups and seminarians were invited to speak to the attendees of the weekend. When Nathaniel heard one of the seminarians talking about his life, he found the life he described attractive. It was then that he began to seriously contemplate pursuing his vocation. Realizing that he had a calling to the
religious priesthood, Nathaniel joined the Benedictines of St. John's Abbey and began studies for the priesthood. After a year and a half, however, he left the community without making vows.
The Call Kept Coming:Nathaniel then returned to California and began teaching elementary school. He found that he loved to teach and loved interacting with children. (I can personally testify to Nathaniel's skills in working with children.) Even so, Nathaniel felt like he was missing something: "I thought I had a good life. I loved teaching. My typical day would go from 7 a.m. to 5:30 p.m., but then I would return home to my apartment and prepare to do the same thing all over again the next day. I felt that I wanted to do something more than that."
A Dominican Vocation:Luckily, the technological age does have its advantages. Remembering a Dominican campus minister that he had met in his college days, Nathaniel looked up the Order of Preachers online. He eventually focused on the Central Province of St. Albert the Great, headquartered in Chicago. "They say that God is the one who gives you a vocation, but you also have to cooperate with that invitation," Nathaniel said. So he called the vocation director and chatted with him, thereby beginning the conversation that would lead to his application and acceptance into the Order of Preachers.
Challenges and Joys:Last night, during first vespers of the Feast of St. Dominic, Nathaniel renewed his vow of obedience for another year and two months. I asked him, with the renewal of vows in mind, what have been his major struggles and major joys as a Dominican friar. The struggle that Nathaniel didn't hesitate to bring up was the challenge of the intellectual life. Dominicans value study, and view study as a part of their identity and charism. It's considered a form of prayer for Dominicans. Due to the language difficulties, Nathaniel often finds the intellectual life of a student brother challenging.
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Fortunately, Nathaniel's struggle with academics is counterbalanced by three central joys. The first source of joy is communal prayer. "I don't have to pray by myself. We come together throughout the day to pray, morning and evening prayer and mass. It helps me during the times when I think 'Oh, I'm so lazy and so tired, I don't want to wake up so early to pray', but then I remember my brothers are waiting for me in the chapel and I get up anyway." The second source of joy is the brotherhood. The amazing thing about the brotherhood is that it brings together men all every different background and personalty, and unites them together in their common journey toward Christian perfection. As Nathaniel said, "The relationship with the brothers has helped not only grow as a religious, but as a human person, as well." The third source of joy is the fact that although we vow obedience as religious, each brother is still free to be an individual, and bring what makes him unique as a gift to the other brothers and the Church. "I am the only Vietnamese in the province. While I would like to see more Vietnamese brothers in the province, I think I am respected by my non-Asian brothers." Nathaniel's Vietnamese heritage has certain brought more flavor to the community, and a different perspective to our discussions of theology.
The Sacred Preaching:Unlike in the formation of other priests and brothers, perhaps, Dominicans begin preaching in the novitiate, and continue on in the community attached to the house of studies. Nathaniel admits that preaching, for him, isn't easy. After three years of preaching, there are three things that he thinks have helped him as a preacher: 1) "You have to find your own voice in your preaching. There are a lot of great preachers in the community, but you don't have to follow someone else's style or format." 2) "Second, you have to have good preparation. Most of the time, when I'm scheduled to preach on the weekend, I begin my preparation on Monday. I'll do, for example,
lectio divina allowing the Holy Spirit to speak to me through the word." 3) "The third one is to just go out and preach. You shouldn't worry so much about what you're going to say, because you're unique." Even with these three insights, Nathaniel admits that he still gets nervous when his turn to preach comes around. The only help for this, he says, is practice, which the student brothers get to do every Saturday and Sunday.
Continuing On:"Renewal of vows is just another way of saying 'yes' and reminding myself of what I promised to do two years ago," he said. "Of course, before renewal of vows, we are given time to discern and ask ourselves, 'Is this still the way of life that I want to embrace?' 'Is this a challenging life?' 'A hard life?' Yes. Life as a friar is not easy. But I do find a lot of joy in this life, and I do find a lot of love in this life, so I thought, why not renew my vows and give my life to this group of people?"
A System of Support:Because the life of a religious is difficult, as Nathaniel stated, I asked him who were his major supports. In typical Nathaniel style, he named three sources of support. The first to be named were his parents. Their faith and love for each other was a model for Nathaniel of spousal love. "As religious, we live chastely, but we love the Church as our spouse. I saw my parents love for each other and I wanted to love the Church in the same way." The second to be named was his spiritual director. "He was always open. He encouraged, and yet challenged me, and always pushed me whenever I was getting myself down, reminding me of what religious life is all about." And the third to be named were the brothers of the formation community. "I would say that the brothers in the house are mentors. They are the shoulder for me to lean on, and also the people I can share my joy with."
Closing Remarks:"I would like to quote John Paul II and say [to those discerning a vocation] 'Don't be afraid.' If you find any community that can bring you happiness and help you fall deeply in love with God, then don't be afraid to give them a try. --It has been a wonderful life."
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My thanks to Br. Nathaniel for sitting down with me for this interview. I hope the readers have enjoyed it. Remember, if you have questions about the life of Dominican friars specifically, or religious in general, email me, and I'll do my best to answer them in my postings.
Peace,
Br. Paul, OP~